Not gonna lie, y’all, I’m anxious for May to arrive. April felt especially draining, and I’m quite literally struggling to stay awake during these last few days as we transition into this new month—one that’s kicking off with a deeply vibrating banger, of course: the Scorpio Full Moon tomorrow, Friday, May 1st.
What about you guys? How was April for you?
Maybe that tug to slow down and rest is actually what I need right now. April felt like a heavy month of integration, a stepping stone for what we’re each about to start receiving this month based on what I’m picking up in this forecast.
It tracks with what I saw before:
I predicted that some of us would be running into ghosts from our past to make sure we finally got the message, while others were nudged to ourselves out there and leap toward opportunities we might not even learn about until later. Well, I’m excited to announce that the predicted “later” time could be starting now…
All Spirit asked was that we be open enough to break free of old restraints and say yes to the “what if.” What I see for May is that this energy continues even more intensely—possibly to a culmination point.
The Theme of May: Virtue
So let’s start with the energy that’s holding the whole month together—Virtue. I know that word might feel heavy or old-fashioned at first, but this card is asking us to look at ourselves from a slightly different angle. Virtue isn’t about performing perfection or acting good for a reward; it’s about aligning your actions with your morals without expectation or validation.
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You know those little things you do—checking in on someone when they didn’t ask, putting effort into your work even when you’re tired, staying true to something you said you believed in even when it’s inconvenient or frustrating? That’s virtue. That’s what’s building your power, quietly, steadily, and without you even fully realizing it.
Virtue is a passive quality of power—the part of you that’s been pulling the bow back before you shoot—and May is the month when we begin to feel that accumulated strength. This can naturally bring much more illumination around our inner truths—who we are, what values we stand for, and what we’re truly willing to act on rather than just talk about. That clarity and self-awareness? That’s where the real power lives.
Virtue isn’t built in the big, public moments—it’s built in the small and seemingly invisible ones.
The power shift and the change that many hope to achieve this month stem from the strengthening of that virtue and integrity. The real kind.
This could look like:
putting the cards and readings down when you want one more confirmation that everything is going to be okay
genuinely celebrating someone else’s win when you’re still waiting on yours
addressing a one-sided friendship instead of quietly pulling back without explanation
making a mistake and holding yourself accountable without making it a whole spiral
taking the high road when someone who hurt you reaches out
resting when you’re exhausted without pushing through to prove yourself
catching yourself being cruel in your self-talk and actually redirecting it
sitting with an emotion long enough to actually feel it instead of immediately reaching for a distraction
getting recognition and receiving it without deflecting or shrinking
doing the right thing in a situation only you would ever know about
pulling back and letting someone be wrong about you without needing to correct them
If you’ve already been doing this work during the initial months of the year, you could be pleasantly surprised. May wants to reward us for leaning into that version of power—the understated, rooted, and deeply earned kind.
So ask yourself honestly:
Where have you actually been showing up in the small moments—and not giving yourself credit for it?
And where have you been telling yourself you’re doing the work, but really just looking for something to make the discomfort stop faster?
The Three-Card Spread: What to Expect This Month
These three cards are the expansion of this month’s theme—they’re showing us how the energy of virtue and inner power is actually going to play out this month. And y’all… it’s pretty layered, not gonna lie.
Five of Swords—The Mental Landscape
This card showing up first in the spread might be telling us that May starts with some residual mental weight. Maybe we’re dragging something into the month that we need to put down before we can really step into what’s coming. The Five of Swords embodies the transformative energy of the number five and channels some of the more chaotic aspects of the air element. It exudes conflict, tension, and “winning at all costs", but not necessarily the kind where someone’s throwing physical hands—more like internal battles and mental games.
This could look like:
overthinking and overwhelm
replaying conversations (rumination and spiraling)
the aftermath of a disagreement: selfishness instead of teamwork, victory over a relationship
continued dishonesty or sneaky behavior
Maybe you technically won an argument, but walked away feeling empty. Or perhaps you chose to step back from a situation, deciding to protect your peace rather than keep fighting for something that refused to fight for you. The Five of Swords doesn’t necessarily signal defeat. Sometimes it means you did win, but the victory still came at a cost, and that lingering energy is probably what you’ll be feeling stuck on.
What’s important here is recognizing when conflict is draining you versus when it’s actually teaching you something. It advises the collective to choose our battles wisely, because some aren’t ours to keep fighting. Some of the noise we carry in our heads—about a situation, a person, or even ourselves—is playing on repeat, and causing more long-term damage than the actual conflicts themselves.
The virtue theme ties directly here because choosing to walk away from a pointless battle, choosing not to clap back—that’s actually a power move. Even if it doesn’t feel like it.
Ask yourself:
What mental loop have I been stuck in lately that I keep coming back to, even though I know it’s not helping me?
Two of Wands—Planning, Vision, and What We’ve Already Set in Motion
The Two of Wands is a fire card—passion, drive, ambition, that spark you feel when you’re about to do something big. It’s the card of a visionary standing at the edge, holding the world in their hands, looking at what’s possible, and saying, “I can see it, I know where I want to go,” and starting to make plans for it.
So, pointing left?
It’s saying that vision you had, that plan you laid out, that spark you felt—it’s not gone, you possibly just got distracted.
Whether this is about what you’re leaving behind in April or the bumps you may hit in May, Spirit is asking you to trust the plan and keep going. It’s natural to second-guess yourself and look back. The Five of Swords energy can leave you wondering if you made the right choices, if you’re on the right path, and if things are still unfolding as they should. This card does prompt you to pause, reassess your goals, and pivot if needed—but not to get stuck in planning. It’s easy to stay in the comfort of thinking about something instead of continuing to take action toward it.
For some, this may involve a creative project, business idea, relationship, or conversation that started strong and then stalled. The groundwork is already in place; this isn’t about scrapping everything and starting over. It’s about remembering why you began in the first place, and choosing to move forward despite distractions and obstacles. May could be the time to pick something back up, or at least to recognize that the foundation you laid hasn’t been wasted.
Ask yourself:
What did I start in the past few months—a plan, a project, a vision—that I’ve been second-guessing, but actually still deserves my energy?
Nine of Wands Reversed—Exhaustion, Guard, and Knowing When to Rest
Okay, this one… hits a bit differently. The Nine of Wands is already the “I’m tired, but I’m still standing” card. Upright, it speaks to resilience and persistence. Reversed, though, it suggests we might be confusing persistence with clinging to old, already-healed wounds. Like, sis, you can put the shield down now—the battle is over. There’s no need to stay overly defensive or paranoid.
In May, this card is another gentle (or maybe not so gentle, depending on what you’ve got going on) reminder that some of us need to lower our guard. Part of the collective may still be running on fumes, stuck in fight-or-flight from something that has already ended. Some of us may feel lingering exhaustion or burnout and still try to power through as if that’s the only option. It’s not—and it’s certainly not the preferred one. Instead, it’s a sign that help is available if you allow it this month, whether that comes from finally following spirit’s guidance or allowing yourself to receive support from someone in your physical world.
When fire burns without being fed, it starts consuming the thing that holds it. Reversed, this card asks not only: What have you been forcing? Where have you been pushing through on fumes and calling it strength?
But also: Where are you tempted to give up and quit before you see progress because you’ve been holding onto comfort, resentment, bitterness, or pessimism?
Sometimes the most powerful thing you can do is stop.
Rest. Let yourself recover. That’s not quitting—it’s resourcing.
Ask yourself:
Where am I running on empty right now and calling it a hustle?
What would it look like to actually let myself rest this month?
What Spirit Intends For Us: Big Favor + Collaboration
Now THIS is where it gets good!
All four of these cards showing up together is no coincidence—Spirit is not holding back this month. May isn’t just about surviving mental battles or recovering from exhaustion. Something is being prepared for us, and it could be big.
A magical journey is about to begin. And the word prepare there is important because it’s not saying sit back and wait. It’s active.
May is a threshold. Something new is starting—and not in a small way. This could be literal: travel, a new city, a new chapter. It could be internal: a shift in your mindset, your self-perception, your spiritual practice. Or both at the same time.
And the universe is conspiring in your favor. Not just nudging you, not just hoping for you—conspiring. Working behind the scenes, putting pieces in place, aligning things you might not even see yet. For those of us who’ve been grinding without seeing results, doing the right things without recognition, showing up in integrity when it felt pointless—this is a direct message. It wasn’t pointless. It was all building to this.
This is where Collaboration comes in, and it’s a bit layered.
On one level, it’s about us and our spirit guides. If you’ve been doing the work consistently, you could be met with increased divine support this month. On another level, for some of us this is literally about other people:
an aligned partnership
a creative collaboration
a situation where everyone involved wins.
And here’s the twist: the big favor might not look like receiving something. For some of us, we are the big favor. Someone may need exactly what you have to offer. Or the thing you’ve been praying for quietly, holding out hope for, has a real chance of coming through—as long as you stay grounded and present to how you’re actively co-creating with Spirit.
The virtue theme comes full circle here. All those quiet things you’ve been doing—the unseen effort, the private integrity, the prayers nobody witnessed—that’s what’s been building. And now the universe is honoring it.
Which brings us back to the real question: are we open enough to receive it? Or are we so guarded or so caught in the mental spiral that we miss the door when it finally opens? This month is asking us to stay grounded and present. Not overly attached to the past we say we’re leaving behind, and not fixated on the exact form our blessings must take or when they’ll arrive.
Ask yourself:
What big thing have you been asking for—from spirit, from yourself, from life—that you’ve kind of stopped believing in?
What would it look like to believe in it again, right now?
The Reminder and Advice: Blessings & Curses, Strategy & Planning, and Seek Clarity
Do not be ashamed. Not of your thorns. Not of your flowers.
The reminder card “Blessings and Curses” is coming in like a warm hug and a reality check all at once—very on brand for May’s energy, honestly.
This month, it’s important to understand and accept both duality and nuance.
The red rose in the visual is showing up as a healer. She mirrors the shame and guilt we carry about who we are—the parts we hide or minimize—and how much that’s quietly been holding us back without us even realizing it.
The thorns are the ways we’ve learned to protect ourselves: our edges, our walls, and our defense mechanisms. They come from real wounds that we’d rather not experience again. And sometimes those thorns affect the people around us, whether they deserve it or not. The Nine of Wands reversed was already pointing to this: we’ve been so used to bracing for impact that we’re prickling at things that aren’t actually a threat.
The work this month is to understand where those wounds are rooted so we can truly heal them, rather than just continuing to manage or excuse them. Because those same thorns, when used consciously, can become something else entirely—our boundaries, our discernment, and our ability to stand firm.
And the flowers? They’re the parts of you that are beautiful, magnetic, and easy to love—your warmth, your creativity, your light, your talent, the version of you that people celebrate and want to be around. But they’re also what we get criticized for: too bright, too dull, too small, too big, too different. Not everyone who comes to you with a need or desire this month deserves your petals. Part of the big favor and collab energy surrounding us is learning who to extend yourself to—who actually has shared intentions and values, and who’s worthy of what you’re offering.
Either way, none of this can change what’s true about each and every one of us: we were created intentionally. All parts of us—the sharp and the soft—are divine.
Both the flowers and the thorns are you. Both are valid. Both are necessary. Neither is something to hide.
May is inviting us to stop separating ourselves into these “acceptable” and “unacceptable” pieces, and instead to understand ourselves more fully so we can show up more wholly. When we actually accept all of ourselves, something shifts. That’s where the real grace and power live.
The red rose doesn’t apologize for its thorns. Those thorns are how it shows self-worth and self-respect. And the flowers—your fullness and the way you glow as your most authentic self—aren’t meant to be hidden either, even if someone once made you feel like shining or blooming was wrong. May is asking us to accept both. Not fix one or suppress the other. Just let yourself be.
And spirit closes May’s reading with the most intimate kind of homework: yourself.
The advice cards are pointing to strategy, clarity, and self-reflection—and more specifically, one of my favorite ways into all three: mirror work. ✨🪞
If it feels uncomfortable, that’s the point. Sitting and actually looking at yourself; not to critique, not to pick yourself apart, but to see yourself with love.
To practice saying out loud:
I accept all parts of myself. I am divine. I am whole.
In a month where power is built in the quiet moments and the universe is conspiring in your favor, the final piece is this: you have to believe you deserve what’s coming, and that something higher and better is coming. Because a lot of people don’t, not fully.
We ask for the big favor while low-key believing we’re going to be let down.
We open ourselves to collaboration while braced for betrayal.
We step into a magical journey with one foot in the door and one foot already backing out—mourning the possibility that things might fall apart.
I get it, but mirror work could be a way to help you close that gap. The deck’s booklet suggests finding guided mirror-work meditations on YouTube—try searching “self-love mirror meditation”—and giving yourself at least 10–15 minutes in front of a mirror to simply gaze into your own eyes. You can also repeat your own affirmations out loud and allow yourself to truly receive them. Keep saying them until they feel less awkward, almost hypnotic. That feeling arises because you’re actually speaking directly to your subconscious self—look it up! Then say them some more.
Try these affirmations for May:
I stop performing the parts of me I think are lovable and start trusting that I am lovable whole
I can hold compassion for why I became this way and still choose differently going forward
I can be discerning without being closed off
I stop shrinking so others feel comfortable. That’s not humility, that’s self-abandonment
Being seen fully is scary and it’s also the only way to be truly loved
I don’t have to earn the right to take up space
And if those don’t land yet, that’s okay. That’s what the practice is for.
Ask yourself:
Which are you more ashamed of right now—your thorns or your flowers?
And when’s the last time you genuinely looked at yourself, not to fix something or perform something, but just to see yourself and feel okay about what you saw?
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I had to read that twice…eye opening. Thanks for the insight!!!
“Both the flowers and the thorns are us. Both are valid. Both are necessary. Neither is something to hide.” So beautiful & insightful & another great read J, thank you!!!! 🥹🫶