Sacred Sunday: The End of Emotional Limbo
A bibliomancy message exploring silent resentment, false reconciliation, and the shift from reactive protection to embodied power.
✨ Happy Sacred Sunday everyone 💛✨
Today’s message comes from Second Samuel 13:20 through 14:32, which is one I feel all too familiar with… and have been reflecting on a lot this past week. God is always right on time, right?
And funny enough, I pulled from my Power Deck to go along with the bibliomancy message. The card at the bottom of the deck was TIME (35), alongside the card I received: UNKNOWN (1).
This section of Second Samuel tells the story of Absalom, Tamar, Amnon, and King David. What came through felt like a very emotionally complex family dynamic centered around betrayal, silence, anger, delayed justice, and estrangement.
📖 2 Samuel 13:22
“And Absalom never said a word to Amnon, either good or bad; he hated Amnon because he had disgraced his sister Tamar.”
So immedietly into it, silent resentment is building.
Externally silent, but internally burning.
He doesn’t confront Amnon. He doesn’t process his emotions. He even tells his sister not to “take this thing to heart”… this thing being her ASSAULT.
So the scene being set is a lesson around suppressed rage, quiet resentment, holding things in to keep the peace, and choosing silence over confrontation.
Maybe it feels more comfortable. Maybe it feels more socially acceptable. Maybe you don’t want to poke the bear. Maybe you assume things will get better over… time.
Let’s circle back to that card real quick, shall we?
TIME (35, East, Yellow): What is time that it has such power to change all that exists back into dust? What is this unseen force like the wind that can shape the land and our lives?
Learn to play with time. Time is surreal, like fish swimming in treetops. A person of power knows how to arrange time. Put on your watch and be aware of the time at which you do everything. Watch the sun, the moon, the transit of the stars. Find out the time that Venus is lowest in the sky before dawn. Be aware of your cycles-when you get hungry, when you sleep.
Our society is obsessed with time, so now "become" time. If you're obsessed with something, it is better to explore it than to deny it. Then it is possible to give up your obsession and let a concept like time take its proper place in your life. Your power depends on your use of time.
In Absalom’s case, time wasn’t passive… it was pressurized. He let years pass while the resentment built, until eventually he took matters into his own hands like some type of crime boss.
So he orchestrates the murder of his brother Amnon, and even creates a scheme to make his father believe all of his sons were killed, when it was really only one.
This shows what happens when pain isn’t acknowledged… it eventually turns into action.
Unresolved wounds can lead to extreme responses.
Justice that is not given will often be sought in other ways.
And this extreme response leads to Absalom’s exile. Distance. More unprocessed grief. More separation from his father.
📖 2 Samuel 14:14
“Like water spilled on the ground, which cannot be recovered, so we must die. But that is not what God desires; rather, he devises ways so that a banished person does not remain banished from him.”
After another scheme conceived by Joab, Absalom is eventually allowed to return home…but he is not allowed to see his father’s face. So he’s physically restored, but emotionally cut off.
This represents a false reconciliation. The relationship is still broken, just dressed up to look repaired.
A performance that continues, but for whose comfort?
This goes on for two years… until we reach the final verse of your message:
📖 2 Samuel 14:32
“Why have I come from Geshur? It would be better for me if I were still there! Now then, I want to see the king’s face, and if I am guilty of anything, let him put me to death.”
This is the turning point. He’s finally saying the core of the message here: I would rather face truth, consequences, and clarity than live in emotional exile and avoidance.
🧿 The emotional arc of this message
When you zoom out, this passage shows a very clear progression:
Silence instead of truth Suppressed hurt turning into anger Distance and separation Superficial reconnection without real healing And a final moment of truth: face me, or free me!!!
And this leads me back to the main Power Deck message:
UNKOWN (1, The Self Card): We are all pilgrims on the path to the unknown. We sit in awe and wonder at the architecture of power.
Ripen the receptive void within you, like a womb accepting a seed. Open yourself to the unknowable, to what is unfamiliar to you, so that the energy of what you need in order to be whole can flow into you.
When you think of yourself as an entity separate from power, you will obstruct the current, and power will defeat you. Identify the form of power you want-what you want to accomplish, build, create, or be-and become that, so that there is no separating you.
This is not a relationship card.
It’s not even really about other people.
It’s about becoming the version of yourself that can meet life differently.
This is about not obstructing your current of power. And that’s exactly what this reflection has been showing me personally. What have I been doing to myself?
Not from a place of blame or perfectionism… but from clarity finally coming in after illusions washed away.
I meant to do a separate collective reading on TikTok for this message, but one that came thorugh earlier in the day actually encapsulates it perfectly already:
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What I’ve been realizing is that I don’t want to follow Absalom’s pattern.
I’ve felt burned in connections before, and holding onto that pain only created more bitterness and self-sabotage. There were times when my genuine curiosity and desire for clarity were met with “it’s not that deep,” gaslighting, manipulation, or pressure to just let things go… and over time, I learned to disconnect from that part of myself.
I stopped trusting that people would meet me with the truth.
So when I look at my lack of closeness in certain relationships, I reflect on how I’ve specifically shown up… the moments I silently assumed, acted impulsively, and lost connection because I was too afraid to face conflict directly.
I’ve pushed people away because I picked up on unfamiliar energy I couldn’t explain, interpreted it through past wounds, and assumed I was in danger or being betrayed.
So I acted fast to protect myself, and I am QUICK to block anyone that feels like a threat to my peace. I realized that I closed certain doors because I thought they were about to close it on me.
That is what it looks like to feel separate from your power.
Because when you feel separate from your own power, you rely on control, prediction, or protection… instead of presence and discernment.
If that ain’t my 3rd house Chiron showing up in real time, then I don’t know what else is lol…my specific wound around voice, communication, trust, and interpretation.
But ending the cycle requires a higher expression of that placement. I had to name the pattern without shaming myself (different from not taking accountability), understand how it formed, and decide what I will do differently.
In part three of the collective reading I filmed, I picked up on the urge to spin the block, make things right, and go apologize. But the message wasn’t to go digging up the past just to say sorry… it’s giving that Sex and the City moment where Carrie shows up to apologize to Natasha for the affair.
Sometimes, yes…it is too late for a specific connection. But that doesn’t make the insight wasted. Because awareness isn’t always meant to repair the past…
sometimes it’s meant to transform your future.
Some connections fall apart because you outgrow them, and sometimes it’s because they’re not fought for.
Sometimes people are more comfortable with letting alignment pass because they don’t want to put in work to hold it, but I want to be someone who can, not only build community, but maintain it too. I want to be able to sit with the unknown, have the courage to ask questions, stay open long enough to receive clarity, and then choose consciously from there.
That’s the shift from reactive protection → embodied power.
So the core message I want everyone to take from this would be:
Do not remain in silent resentment or half-closed connections.
Choose truth, closure, and emotional clarity, even if it ends the relationship.
You may resonate if something was never fully expressed by you or someone else, if a connection quietly drifted apart or emotionally shutdown instead of being addressed, if there was reconnection without real healing, or you’re currently sitting in limbo with someone.
Your soul doesn’t want to stay there.
This isn’t about reuniting with everyone.
It’s about reuniting with your power.
The unknown is not danger.
The unknown is where new types of relationships live.
If you only trust what feels familiar, you will often continue to recreate familiar dynamics, familiar wounds, and familiar endings.
Your soul is asking you to stay open long enough to discover something different. To hold space for something new… without rushing to define it, defend against it, or destroy it.
🔢 The number pattern message
I noticed the numbers 132 and 432 through the chapters, and I personally see those. Together they point to a step-by-step building sequence.
1 = self, initiation, identity
4 = stability, structure, foundation
3 = communication, expression, interpretation
2 = relationship, connection, reciprocity
Start with self (1), heal your communication (3), and then your relationships (2) can become stable (4).
💫 Affirmations for this message
Here’s two lines you can sit with, meditate, or journal on:
“I release silent pain and choose honest closure. I am no longer available for connections that cannot meet me in truth.”
“Unfamiliar does not mean unsafe. I trust myself enough to meet the unknown with curiosity instead of defense.”
Great insights. Thank you for sharing your wisdom and insight.